*Sigh*

This winter has been really hard on me. Well, to be fair, the last 6 months or so have all been building up to this. But, I have never felt this low.

I've always thought I had SAD, but I figured that I must've gotten over it the last few years, but to be fair, we had an extremely mild winter last year. So, that was obviously wishful thinking on my part.

Anyway, I've always hated February. There's a reason they make it so short. It sucks. There's too much snow, slush, gray, gloom and blah out there.Not to mention the fact that I end up feeling gloomy, gray and blah because of it.

I don't know about any one else, I hope I'm not the only one that has this. Well, we'll see if I'm the fucked up one here or it it's just commonplace.

Do you ever wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall back asleep? And not because you're thinking of all the things you want / need to do the next day, year, week, whatever. No, you're wide awake because your mind is telling you that, you shouldn't have done this or said that. You should have done this, made this, said this. And this is why you don't have, X, Y, Z. Or why you aren't A, B, and C.

Ugh, I just want to get rid of that little voice. And maybe it's always been there. Maybe I'm just more suceptable to it because of all the shit going on.

But I get up, I work out, I go through the motions, hoping that one day soon. The sun will come out, the flowers will bloom and that I'm not really a failure. And maybe, just maybe I'll be able to sleep through the night.

And then in the next instance, I just want to slap myself for even believing the negativity for even a second.

This has to end soon right?!?!?! Spring isn't that far away.....right?!?!?!

That little voice isn't right. Right?!?!?!

Aggravated...

So the other day, I decided to take Angel Baby to see Despicable Me 2 in 3D. It was after work/pre-school. So I rushed around, got us some food, and got there in time. We bought our tickets for the 6:15 show, got our concessions and headed into the theater for our movie to start in 10 min. Perfect, right?!?!?

Nope.

6:15 came and went with nothing. So we packed up, went and found the Customer Service desk and asked what was up. The employee (with the fancy sports jacket and name tag) went to check on things. Turns out, the 3D theater wasn't working and had been serviced all day.

WTF?!?!?!

1. It's been out all day, and yet you can still buy tickets?

2. You're in charge, how do you not know this?

So we decide we still want to see it even in 2D. We get our tickets switched over and he refunds me the difference. Now we have a 20 minutes before we can even sit down in the new theater. Luckily, Angel Baby is just so tickled to be out with Mommy by herself she's dancing and having a grand time. Whew! We finally get to our seats and the movie starts.

All is good, right?!?!?!

Yeah.......nope.

An hour into the movie, it clicks off. Nothing. So we're all sitting there and an usher comes in and says, "We're working on getting the movie back up, it'll be a few minutes."

Whatever, I'm starting to realize this movie theater sucks ass and that I'm never coming back.

Again Miss Usher shows up and says, "It'll be a few more minutes."

After another two "Few more minutes" Angel Baby asks if we can leave. Well, since it's now 8:30, we've been here for 2.5 hours and we're not sure when it's going to start.....yes...we can leave.

On our way out, we meet 2nd fancy person in a Sports Jacket with name tag. She asks if we're leaving from Despicable Me 2? Yes.

"I'm on my way in there now to offer free passes to everyone for the inconvenience. And how many are in my party?"

I told her that this was by far the most horrible movie experience I had ever had and that I was never coming back again.

"We had a power outage, and for some reason this movie doesn't want to start back up."

I informed her of my first situation, and then that fact that I didn't need to have someone keep coming in and say some random, "Few minutes". She seemed surprised about the 3D thing, (yet again, no one talking to anyone else).

***Side note: Is is just me, or wouldn't it have been better if Miss Usher had said, "We've had a power outage and are working on the situation, we will keep you informed of our progress."****

She asked me again, if I wanted free passes.

Nope. Not a chance. Why would I want to come back here to be subjected to horrible service?!?!?!?

And the only reason I didn't ask for a refund is because I had free passes to being with.

Angel Baby and I will try again this weekend to see it in 3D. I will make it right to her.

Stuff - Good and Bad

Let's start with the bad.

So I’ve had a rough couple of weeks since I last posted. Squeaker gave himself a black eye and  fell down the stairs. (He’s okay!) Angel Baby has been more of “Demon Baby” with her whining and new potty issues. Why she has to constantly pee on her panties is beyond frustrating. I bruised a toe pretty badly and just last Sunday, I fell on the stairs. Well slipped down a few stairs and landed on my butt. So yesterday, I had a very sore coccyx. (Hubs was so hilarious when I mentioned it. “You said cock. Hee hee. Apparently, I’m married to a 12 year old. And we all had a really horrible stomach flu thing that stuck around for a full week. I’m happy to say that I lost a few pounds, but come on. There has to be an easier way.

Good news: my office’s holiday party is tomorrow. I can’t wait to go and have fun. I get to run the White Elephant and it’s always such a blast to see what present everyone fights over. 

Other great things? I’m almost done Christmas shopping. I only have my Mom and Step-Dad and Dad and Step-Mom left for buy Christmas gifts. However, I still have to get Hubs something for his birthday. Other than that it’s just wrapping and finishing up the gifts that I’m making. 

Yet more great things? I participated in the Holiday Mix Tape Swap that Meagan, Sara and Meghan were hosting.

I was matched up with Christine at A day in the life... We sent a few emails back and forth about what music we both liked/were looking for. She did a great job on my tape. It was great! Lots of oldies, newbies, and some that I've never heard before. 

1.       Christmas (Baby Please Come Home) - Mariah Carey

2.       Baby, It’s Cold Outside - Dean Martin & Martina McBride

3.       I’ll Be Home for Christmas - Elvis & Carrie Underwood

4.       Silent Night - Sarah McLachlan

5.       My Grown Up Christmas List - Kelly Clarkson

6.       It’s the Most Wonderful Time of the Year - Harry Connick Jr.

7.       The Christmas Song - Peggy Lee

8.       Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow - Michael Bublé

9.       White Christmas - Bing Crobsy & Frank Sinatra

10.   Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas - Christina Aguilera

11.   Jingle All the Way - Lena Horne

12.   Shake Up Christmas - Train

13.   It Came Upon a Midnight Clear - Norah Jones

14.   Cool Yule - Louis Armstrong & the Commanders

15.   It’s Beginning to Look a lot Like Christmas - Harry Connick Jr.

16.   Blue Christmas - Elvis & Martina McBride

17.   Jingle Bells - Michael Bublé & The Puppini Sisters

18.   Santa Baby - Eartha Kitt

19.   Winter Wonderland - Dean Martin

20.   Joy to the World - David Archuleta

21.   Satariffic - Harry Connick Jr.

22.   All I want for Christmas is You - Michael Bublé

23.   It Ain’t Christmas - Joe

24.   Holly Jolly Christmas - Faith Hill

      I highlighted my top faves from the playlist in Green. Also, I have to say that in perusing all the other mix tape playlists I found out about a great group. Pentatonix. They are AMAZING!!! I had to go and buy their Christmas album on iTunes. If you haven't heard of them. Check them out here.